I wanna be like them too

For the past few days, I have been seeing these videos some of friends share on Facebook.

O really wanted to watch them but there was always something that stopped me.

Only today did I manage to watch these videos.







I don't know how to describe my feelings after watching the first video about Wardina. It struck me to think and think and think up until now, at 3 am in the morning.

It was around 6 something pm when I was preparing for Iftar and I took a quick breather and sit in front of my laptop and browse through my news feed when I suddenly saw these videos.

I played and watched it and half way through, there were suddenly tears in my eyes. I immediately pulled myself together because I didn't wanna be seen with tears in front of my sisters who were all here today for Iftar together.

I could relate to all the stories shared by the three personalities. There are so much that I've been missing out in life. Too much worldly stuffs have been going on in my mind and in my life all this while.

And it scares me. It truly scares me. There were so many things which I shouldn't have done but I did. I could relate to the stories they shared in the videos and I found the similarities with them. The mistakes I made, all the sins I committed, the solah I missed!

Ya Allah! The superficial happiness and joy I was and have always been after. It will never end. I wish I could tell you all the things I did before but I am too ashamed of my self. I should be ashamed. I've been wrong with many people, my parents, my family, my friends, and most importantly, with ALLAH. Malu dengan ALLAH. Ya Allah!

But, like what Wardina said in the video, I don't wanna be among the people who will NEVER, NEVER EVER be shown the right path. I don't want to continually be IGNORANT and LOST.

But it's easily said than done. This is what scares me. I am afraid I may not be strong enough and I falter along the way. I don't wanna be the same person I am now or I was before. I want to be a BETTER person like them too.

But how do I begin?

Am I going to be as lucky as them who are now shown the right path?

I need the strength and I need the support too.

Nevertheless, I believe every single one of us can change. I can change. Change for the better. I will not say time will tell and determine when I will change.It has to start now. I need a strong will power to change. It's probably NOW or NEVER.

One step at time, Amir. One step at a time! 

"Islam is cool, and Islam is the only way of life", Wardina.

Toodles!

My very own bundle shop :)

I always love Junkyard Sales/ Car boot sales/ Flea market or whatever you call it. Or even bundle, as it is famously known here in Malaysia. 

Some people may not like it due to the fact that they are selling some used stuffs or some no-longer-wanted possessions and tend to go euuuw at it. I once thought the same too. I find it kinda funny and strange to be buying some other people's stuffs.

But now, I find it really interesting because I don't see any harm or reason not to buy these secondhand items and goods especially if they are still in a good condition. In fact, you can sometimes find some really interesting items you've always wanted at a really affordable price.

When I was at Urbanscapes last month, I saw lots of vendors selling secondhand goods and I was thinking to myself that it would be really interesting if I get to open a booth or a stall selling my stuffs I wanna let go. This is because I have lots of things to let go especially my clothes. *One of the many reasons is I cannot fit into them anymore. Sigh*

All of them are still in good condition and some of them are used only for a few times.

There are Topman (which used to be my favorite brand. I will write more of that in the next pos), Zara, Guess, Padini and a few others. My sister also has lots of things to let go. So, I was thinking that It would be really nice if I could open a booth selling all of these goods.

But then I wonder, where would it be? Hahaha

There are some daily night market and weekly flea market here in Ipoh and I am considering of opening a booth there. Interesting kan? Nay? Heeee

I also had the idea of just selling off all of these clothes to my cousin who happens to have a bundle store recently opened here in Ipoh.

Am still contemplating because I don't see any reason of keeping all of these clothes anymore. I have very limited space in the closet and I now have no space to put my clothes anymore. T_T'''

I am gonna share pictures of the things I wanna let go here in my blog in the next post.

If anyone of you who happens to read my blog and is interested in any of the stuffs I am letting go, you can just drop a comment in the post. I promise the pictures will be up by Monday next week.

See y'all next week with all the pictures because I am going back home tomorrow! Yeay!

Toodles!

p/s: I hope it is not too late to wish everyone who is fasting, Happy Fasting and have a blessed Ramadhan!

Value of Money

Sometimes all it takes for somebody to really understand the value of money is to experience the life of people who are living in poverty and such devastation of life and, in fact some who live below the poverty level.

I must admit that I sometimes live life like there's no tomorrow.

Without even seriously thinking, I sometimes spend money like it grows on tree.They don't.

I have so many blessings and I realize how fortunate I am to have the life I live now. Therefore, I should never take anything for granted. 

Everyone just gotta see more of the other side of life cos you'll never know the possibilities of what our life could be. We don't wanna end up regretting what we do, do we?

We must really understand the value of money and hard work.

I myself must learn to value and appreciate more of what I have.

50cents may seem so small to me and you and you and you, but it means so much to somebody  out there.

I hope I will constantly be reminded of this. InsyaAllah.

Toodles!

How big a blogger can be...

Remember my blogspot on Urbanscapes 2011?

Malaysia's super-blogger, the pioneer to this whole blogging scene in Malaysia, Miss Joyce Wong aka KinkyBlueFairy had actually put a link to my Urbanscapes 2011 in her blogspost on Urbanscapes.

My picture with her was also featured in her post. *blushes*

I was really honored to be featured in her blog, although it was only a little tiny mention in that post.

The more exciting thing to me is I was shocked to have received almost 500 views for that post itself!

Isn't that awesome?

I mean just imagine how huge of a blogger she is that because of that link in that post, I received readers from not just Malaysia but from so many other countries and places which I sometimes have no idea where that is.

No surprise that bloggers can be such influential people. A simple example, BryanBoy.

No idea who that BryanBoy is? It's okay.

Toodles!

Money doesn't come easy, baby.

Now that I have finished my 6-long-year studies, I am starting to think about what to do next.

Everyday, I keep thinking about my future, the possibilities and many other things.

Or maybe I just over-think things? Maybe.

For the past 6 years, I lived kinda lavishly because I was studying under government scholarship which I consider quite sum of money. And I didn't quite really understand the hardship of earning money because it was given to me every semester. And my parents also sometimes gave me pocket money. I was really lucky. I felt really blessed and grateful.

But when it is now over, here comes the real life where you are on your own. No one is giving you money anymore.

Let me rephrase that.

No more scholarship received every 6 month like how it used to be, but my parents still give me money. But, I feel so embarrassed to receive money from them anymore. They know I haven't started working and I don't have money to live on. But hey, I am a soon-to-be 24-year-old chap, and I still receive money from my parents? No, that ain't cool to me at all!

Every now and then, I got to thinking, "For the past 24 years of living, what have I possessed so far?"

I realized that I basically have nothing but myself. Absolutely nothing of my own. Put aside what my parents give me. I basically have nothing. Nothing.

And it makes me to think that I have been enjoying myself a little too much that I forget about the future. And now, as I am moving towards a new beginning,  a beginning of another stage in my life, I finally come to my sense that there are so much responsibilities I need to think about, that there's so much for me to do, not just for myself but for people around me.

And every time I think about responsibilities, I will think about money.

Money is definitely not everything (this may sound cheesy, but whatever), but you need money for almost possibly anything these days (that includes my retail therapy,hahaha).

It's been almost 2 months since everything was over and done with and just so you know, I haven't started working as a real teacher. I don't know what the real deal is nor do I have no idea to whatever causes this delay in our posting.

I am not bored, I am just restless sitting around doing basically nothing. (If the "doing nothing" can give me money, I wouldn't mind it at all). It brings more harm than good (one of it is, I am gaining crazy weight and I am super fat now).

So I thought, I need to start looking for a job. Yes, I need to work.

Work => money => can buy stuffs 

I definitely would love to enjoy this long holidays before my career as a teacher starts and takes away this wonderful life I have.

But I can't. In order to survive, one needs money, and I need money. I realize money doesn't come easy and you need to work hard to earn money. Hence, here I am now. Working and still looking for other jobs so I can get more money.

No, I am not money-minded nor am I materialistic.

I just have lots of things in my mind and that these "things" require money for me to realize them.

It's nothing fun like that, it's a part of my plans towards becoming a responsible adult.

Now I know how hard it is to get money. HARD EARNED MONEY, as they say.

Key word, HARD!

Money doesn't fall from the sky, Amir. It doesn't! Wake up!

YES! I am all grown-up now and I know my responsibilities!(though sometimes I act like a little childish bitch, but hey, there's always a little child in everybody)

I am actually working now, and I am probably starting my second job next month. Wish me luck people!

I don't know what future has in store for me but I surely hope that it's gonna be all sweet and beautiful for me. :)

Toodles!

How often do you wash your jeans?

This just came to my mind randomly when I was putting on my jeans just now.

Boys being boys (boy lagi ke aku ni masalahnya? haha), I don't wash my jeans like every time after I wear it. I will be washing them only after I use like 5 times, or more than that.

Disgusting much? Hahahahaha. Sorry for that.

But it's true. To me, the longer you let your jeans stay unwashed, the more comfortable it will be to wear them. I mean, really. No kidding. That's how I feel. At least to me, not generally.

I have a few pair of jeans in my closet but the one that I really love is the Levis jeans I bought over 4 years ago.

I just couldn't believe that I have had this jeans for that long period of time and I am still wearing and loving it like the first day I bought it. (even though it's a little ketat these days,arghhh!)

I don't know about girls but some of my guy friends said the same thing too.

Their jeans will feel more comfortable when it is worn many times without washing them.

Does it apply to you, people out there, the masses in general too?

Just wondering. Very random from me. Heeeeeeeeee

Toodles!

Is it the last Transformers?

I just got back from watching Transformers: Dark of the Moon.

I know. Call me so yesterday, call me lame. I just got to watch it. So what?

It's been a while actually since I last watched movies in cinema. Not really a movie person. Another reason why it took me so long to watch Transformers.

Today, I was really bored. I didn't know what to do. So I made the  decision to go out and catch the movie while I can. I know it's an awesome movie. I never missed the previous two Transformers movies and that really pushed me to go watch this one though as I said, I always dread going for movies.

Anyhoo, for God knows why, I got a little emotional today while watching Transformers. I know I have this catharsis syndrome in me but you might ask, Transformers? Cried? Really?

Yes. I wasn't like sobbing like booohooohoooohoooo like that, no, of course not. That would make me a weirdo and that might just freak the people around me in the cinema out.

I don't know but somehow I felt emotional about it. Maybe because that will be the last movie for the Transformers franchise? Is it? Or is it not?

I hope it's not. Or is it confirmed already?

If anyone knows, do have some mercy to inform me okay. 

The movie was awesome as usual. The new girl was HOT! Seen her before from Victoria's Secret Fashion Show and she is hot. Don't care if her acting sucks, but she is hot hot hot.

Why do I like Transformers?

Simply because I love the actions that go on in the movie. They're always heart-pumping and it gets my adrenalin pumping! Love the robots! Cool!

No matter how horrible the storyline and acting is, that would not matter to me cos I love the robots-fighting -scene and the actions shown in the movie.

I didn't watch it on 3D just now but I wonder how super awesome It would be like on 3D! Maybe I can watch again one more time, perhaps? Heeeeeeeee





For those who haven't watched Transformers and not a fan of the franchise, I feel sorry for you! Hahahaha

Toodles!

Urbanscapes 2011

Yeay! I am no longer Urbanscapes-virgin! Hahahahaah

As I mentioned in my previous post, I finally went to my first ever Urbanscapes. I've been wanting to go to Urbanscapes since it started a few years back and this year was my lucky year.

I was really lucky that I won the tickets from the contest on JoyceTheFairy's blog, KinkyBlueFairy. I was really glad that I could even make it to Urbanscapes which I thought I couldn't in the beginning. I basically couldn't pick up the tickets before Friday which I was supposed to from Freeform office somewhere in Petaling Jaya. But the fact that I am from Perak, I wouldn't be able to collect the tix and I had no friends who could do it for me too.

So I thought my dream of going to Urbanscapes was over. But, it was really nice of Joyce to inform me that if I was really coming, she would collect the tix and pass it to me on that Saturday itself. Of course I would say yes. It was really kind+nice+sweet+thoughtful of her to do that for me and I feel the love. So, yes, she did and we met today for the first time. Oh my God let me know, she is so pretty and CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I am not exaggerating! She indeed is! For those who have never met her, I am not lying and you've gotta see her in the flesh. She is so petite and arghhh, she is so pretty! PERIOD!


She is pretty+cute and I am so fat. So please ignore me. T_T'''

Okay, I gotta stop talking about her. No wait. I just gotta say I am so happy to finally meet her cos I have been following her blog since 4 years ago and it was like a dream come true as well to finally see the person I always read about and see on her blog all this while. I was completely startsruck!

Okay. Now, move on to what went down today. I was actually with a great company today, my best friend! It was really nice to get to hang out with him after so long.

We took a bus to KL, thinking that it would be easier to move around with public transporation. We took off from Ipoh as early as 7.30 in the morning. Talk about how excited I was to go to KL for Urbanscapes. I actually dragged my friend out of his bed to go out that early! Hahaha

As we reached KL earlier than we should, we decided to walk around Bukit Bintang area since I have not been there for over a year since I left university for JB. Man I tell you, Bukit Bintang has changed tremendously. The last time I was there, Farrenheit and so many things were still under construction and now Bukit Bintang looks super chic!

The one that got my attention most was this place called Sephora. The building looks super chic I*L-O-V-E*I-T!

Earlier that day, I tweeted Joyce and asked her at what time she would be at Urbanscapes and she said she'd be there at 3. My tickets were with her so I could only get in once I got the tickets from her. To kill time, we walked into Pavilion, had our lunch and some window shopping. I'm not in a state where I have the money to spend for shopping, so it really hurt to see stuffs sold real cheap for as low as 70% off. *Sob sob*

Since I didn't wanna be late for my first meeting with Joyce, we decided to head down earlier to Padang Astaka, PJ where Urbanscapes took place this year.

Joyce was a little late, but it was alright. Anything for her. It was really kind of her to collect the tickets for me and it didn't really matter having to wait for her for a little while. After all, she is a super-blogger I adore. Daaaa. I didn't mind waiting.

So, we lepak and sit under the tree and saw loads of people coming in. More and more and more people coming. I was really excited to look at the crowd. It was really happening.

The ticket counter which I didn't have to go through cos I had my tickets for free! Bluek :p



I think this year's venue was bigger than the previous ones in KLPAC. Hence, loads more tents and boots and stalls! Awesome!

Can you spot Joyce? NO!!! I didn't stalk or follow her all the way,alright!



Apart from all these booths selling so many cool items and stuffs, they also had like few stages for music performances by local artistes, among them were Tilu band, Liyana Fizi, Najwa just to name a few. That's what Urbanscapes is all about, creative arts and music is art.





 Everything was basically under one roof. Urbanscapes brings to you all sort of things in one event. They even had this Zapin flashmob by Aswara. Cool! I wanted to join but was so really shy. Heeeee

And not forgetting some spontaneous funny sketch comedy by these famous actors I forgot their names. So bad of me. Sorry. :)

And here are some more pictures I took at Urbanscapes 2011.

It was definitely a day filled with fun, joy, excitement and loads of activities that attract so many different people.

Nice weather, though it was a bit drizzling just for a nano second when I first came but turned out alright and real HOT after that. Felt like summer. LOL

And also bumped into some familiar faces and celebrities like Henry Golding, Hansen Lee, Mingtdabomb, Jezmineblossom and a few others.

I enjoyed it so much even though I had to leave early.

It was a really nice and fun experience.

It's probably going to be my first and last Urbanscapes.

But, at least I can proudly say that I have been to Urbanscapes!

Once again, thanks JoyceTheFairy! :)

Toodles!

I LOVE online contest

You know online contest?

If you don't, you are just an utterly dumb moron. Hahaha :p

I love online contest because it allows people like me to win so many cool prizes and invites to cool events.

I never win anything so big I can boast about so far.

But yeah, I have won a few invites to cool events which none I could ever make it to. Sigh

Yes, apart from following the blogs which I love reading, I am always excited about the variety of contest these bloggers have on their blogs. Especially the ones that require very minimal effort from me to win them. Heeeeeee

I never won gifts or money or anything like that but as far as I could remember, I had won a few invites from different bloggers.

Among them were from Amanda Choe aka Panda's TOOC, Niki Cheong's blog (in which my picture was featured in his blog too) and the latest one was from JoyceTheFairy's kinkybluefairy.

The first two invites were really cool but unfortunately, I couldn't make it to both of the events.

But this one from JoyceTheFairy is the one I'm most excited about because I am going to this event!!!
Anyhoo, I actually won a pair of tickets for Urbanscapes 2011. I've always wanted to go to Urbanscapes but I never had a chance to. However, I am not going to miss it again this year because I have the free tickets with me! Yeay!

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I am bringing my best friend to Urbanscapes and it's definitely gonna be so much fun.

Looking forward to being there, enjoying all the great fun activities, seeing so many artsy exhibition, variety of booths and performances from our local acts and of course meeting loads of bloggers whose blogs I follow especially Joyce.

Speaking about online contest or any other contest for that matter, I always envy people who are always so very lucky to win awesome prizes like thousands of cash prizes, gadgets, cars, blah blah blah. I wonder how happy I can be if I were them.

I guess they put much more effort than I always do. Heeeeee.

Yes, I am now determined to try out as many contests be it online contests or those in the newspapers. Who knows one fine day, lady luck might be on my side and I win something big this time. Yeay.

Arghhhh, I am excited for Urbanscapes this Saturday.

Now, what am I gonna wear?

Toodles!

Welcome back to me! :)

Oh my God, it's been a while since I last updated. It's not even a while. It's been like forever, I reckon.
I am not gonna say I am that busy though cos obviously I have finished my studies and everything I am obligated to do.
I am a free man, basically.
It's just that I don't know what to write.
I guess my life is too boring to the point where I have nothing interesting to share here.
In fact, I am back in my hometown where the internet connection is really limited.
My Celcom broadband does not work magically here like how it does in other places.
I am only connected to the world via my lovely BlackBerry. Thank God for it. Hence, the lack of updates too.
The only thing that gets me connected is my Twitter and Facebook. Sigh

Sometimes, I ask myself, how long am I going to blog after this?
If you ask me, I do not know how to answer that. I don't have any answer to that because I blog whenever I feel like to. It's not something that I MUST do everyday. I don't get paid for blogging or do I work as a full-time blogger.
So , I guess this blog will exist as long as I am alive, I suppose.I love this blog,so I will not terminate this blog. At least, for now.

And also today, I decided to open this blog for public, for everyone to read.For over a year I kept it low key and private, I guess it's time for me to let it open back for public.
There's nothing interesting about this blog though, so feel free to drop by and read this humble blog and feel free to drop a comment or two.

I guess that's all for now. Just so know, I am now a jobless man whose future is still shady and unknown. I am still waiting for the result, where I would be sent to teach after this. This ain't kiddy thing cos this time around, it is for real. Wish me all the best of luck. I am still wishing it's gonna be Perak but who knows what future holds. Till then, enjoy your life to the fullest. :)

Toodles!