Trust Issue

I have problem with trusting people now.

I don't know who I can trust these days.

It is just hard cos' no one seems to be true enough.

Except for some of course, those I never doubt their honesty, friendship, trust and loyalty to me.

And for the rest...I just cannot simply trust you people.

There is some fear in me that people will betray me by revealing anything I tell them, though they know it should not be told to others.

Sometimes, I feel like there is no reason for me to keep lamenting or dwelling on the fact that some people are just plain bitches made from hell. They cannot be trusted. Therefore, why bother befriending them, right?

I never worry about not having as much frineds like other people do.
For me, studying here is just temporary.
After this, like another 1 year and a half, I won't be meeting you people any more, except for some true friends I have.
So I don't bother to kiss your ass, or telling you people the rest of my whereabouts, what I am doing and whatever.
I do not have to do that cos' it ain't worth it.

I learn my lesson.
I trusted people so much before this, and finally truth came out and it hurt.
But, I should not be defeated by it.
It shold make me stronger.
I guess that's just one phase of life that almost everyone, or maybe just everyone has to go through.
And I believe in karma.
God knows, and what goes around comes around.
I believe in that.
I am aware of the fact that I need to be nice and kind to people, and nice and good things will come back to me.

This trust issue is really a big deal for me.
I tell you that my trust is not something I hand out easily.
So, yeah, that is that.

Now, my aim to get my first class degree.
I want to excel in my studies, and plan everything for my future.
These little tiny miny tirvial around me...let's not just simply say bye bye to them, but I will put them aside first.
Sometimes, ignorance is really a bliss.
There are more to my life.
And that's what I am looking forward too.